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Dead Star
By: Jesriel Cabug-os
Sa panahon natin ngayon marami nang pagbabago sa ating bansa.
Hindi lang sa makabagong technolohiya kundi sa ating mga kabataan ngayon
karamihan sa mga binata ngayon hindi na makapag-aral kasi kulang sa financial
support ng kanilang mga magulang. Kaya nga karamihan sa mga kaso ngayon tungkol
don sa ating mga kabataan karamihan sa kanila nalululong sa computer games,
video carera, at droga. Habang maaga pa ito dapat malunasan natin ang ganitong
problema na sinapit ng ating bansa sa ngayon. Kasi Kung hindi natin ito maayos
malamang na dadami pa ang ganitong kaso. Ang ating bansa ay sagana sa likas na
yaman na makikita lang natin sa ating paligid “ sabi nga ditto ang yaman natin
ay dumadaloy lang sa ating mga palad kung hindi tayo kikilos warang mangyayari
sa atin. Isa lang masasabi ko sa mga kabataan ng bayan “you are the youth
leaders of our country” sinasabi nga ditto na ang kabataan ang pag-asa ng bayan
kaya patunayan natin ito hndi lang sa sabisabi kundi gawin natin ang nararapat
na gawin. Last meeting August 29, 2012 a cloudy season afternoon at a time of
2-5 o’clock p.m for my subject for Literature my instructor discuss all about a
short story of a “DEAD STAR” since I listen to the discussion of my Instructor
happen for a 4 hours sitting in my arm chair. I suppose to be my chair is
started to heat and I feel this because I set for a 3 hours in my chair. I
think so others can feel this since I listen to hear that story I realized that
story is related to my self happened at this time so I’m interesting to listen
this story. This story is related for romance when the boy recall all happened
in his life she go back to the girl that who can cares true the guy. When was
still single at that time in the Secondary Education at the Jacinto P. Elpa
National High School in the place of Tandag City, Surigao Del Sur. I used to
tell to my classmate why do u love pretty girls he replied to me “ para may kasama oh di kaya trip lang namin” the story about how I meet pretty girls in the
campus, as an example of an first try to meet strangers in the campus. Examination to examination that day, the
reactions I got was always the same: kilig.
Here goes.
It was a big party night happened in the campus called “juniors and Seniors Ball Party” I
boarded a classmate’s in a Social Hall after my day class in the morning in
JPENHS campus. As usual, I took the window seat and stared at the fresh Air
came from outside the laced window. Instead of pondering bad smell of Air came
outside, I recalled an incident that past day afternoon: I reserved a copy for
a valentine’s card of Jezelle Bautista and autograph with a signature over
printed name of that girl, but the Adviser shout its all done somebody else, so
I ran to the classroom to pass back this card to my class adviser with the name
and signature of that girl.
I smiled at the thought of this but quickly put on a straight
face because I didn’t want to be seen smiling by myself. A pretty girl sat
beside me, but I hardly paid attention to him for I was still immersed in my
thoughts on my friend’s and I feel myself being nervous to talk each other and
missed opportunities.
He asked
whether that party would be done at this night through campus party night. I
found the question dumb because the party ends at 5 in the morning, so I just
nodded a little while still looking out of the window of the Social Hall,
sending the I’m-not-interested message across.
As the party
night end the NSTP group started kept the garbage in the social hall, I
suddenly realized that I had no “wala
pala akong kasamang umuwi sa bahay”. I strained my neck, looking for the
girl. The pretty girl beside me said that don’t worry about that I’m here to go
with you I was about to raise hell but when I turned to look at him, I forgot
about hell. He was so ganda sobra talaga na inlove tuloy ako.
His
eyelashes were longer than mine. His eyes were adorably cute. Lips, pinkish.
Nose, perfect. Complexion, smooth. And he smelled good.
At that time
the girl I meet started to talk each other and still to close myself. She introduces
her self, by the way im Jezelle. What about you ah me im Jesriel hmmmm. She
said, where do you live at this time I replied I have my own house at San
Agustin Sur, Tandag, City infront of the office of the Action EL Hambre. She
said ah ok! How old are you now me I’m 16 year’s old and you jezelle me same
age hmmm something chezzy together with Jezelle. Jezelle said Jesriel when you
finish study in high school where do you go ah I think im continuing my studies
and im finish degree course for Bachelor
of Science in Information Technology. And you Jezelle where you go after
graduation me im going to Manila to Study Degree course in Business Adminitration at Our Lady of Fatima University at Navotas
PH. Someday will see you again Jesriel in college.
He just blinked and said sorry with his gentle voice.
After that a
long conversation together with Jezelle, it is the time to say goodbye to each
other, and I miss this thing happened to me, because I know Jezelle is good
girl I had encountered in a long time since in a high school life. And all of
this has ends.
After the
graduation day! The guest speaker says that Congratulation to all the graduates
of batch 2009 in JPENHS.
I’m going to
get a ticket from the booth of superferry. Then I realized myself that Jezelle
is the most important girl in my life. Without Jezelle my life is full of
worries and sadness I think so. I speak my self this is my choice to go in
manila to finish my studies. So forget Jezelle in my life.
At this time
I ask myself why I love more pretty girls in this moment. To be able “na may makasama ka habang buhay”. Since,
in a college life more friends, new classmates, and Instructors in a college
that I meet him. I feel my heart beat faster than my pulse I ask why because of
that new life to face in college I think so.
The class in
college is starting to be polish by the college president. He said the classes
will be start tomorrow morning. I was excited to find my new room, classmates
and instructor. At the first day of my class in college I’m so happy with them.
In 1st and 2nd year college the lesson to be discussed by
the Instructor will be easy to follow them. While in the 3rd and 4th
year college lesson to be discuss will it is hard to follow my brain I supposed
to be my body will surrender for everyday overnight days for the proposed
system to be conducted by the researchers in the BSIT- 4 Student. But the
leader of my team can talk to their members you should finish this project due
for the requirements in BSIT-4. And I found a lot of lessons given by the team
leader. Sa team group KO poh merong girl
Na cute his name Mary Ann Collado siya yung girl Na niligawan KO since 1st year
college until 2nd year college naging close kami SA isat-isa tapos more in
conversation about her past life happened in myself. Nang kinausap ko siya na
pwede ba kitang ligawan still smiled and shy like me. Nakikita ko sa mga mata
niya na mahal niya ako kaso lang mahiyain siyang girl matagal din kaming
magsama araw-araw sa school. Kaso na hihirapan ako kung ano ang gagawin ko kasi
pag sinabi kung sabay na tayong umuwi nag papakipot pa siya. Jefrey said
pabayaan moh na lang siya baka hindi pa ito yung tamang time na magkaroon siya
ng BF. Sabi ni jefrey sa akin bkit hndi moh balikan yung ex GF moh nung high
school kappa. I replied to jefrey baka meron na siyang mahal na iba. She
replied walang imposible sa taong nagmamahal ng tunay sa isang babae. Yung mga
araw na yon nag iisip ako, oo nga noh bakit hndi ko siya balikan na gusto ko
naman siya. Ako lang kasi ang may kasalanan kasi don eh iniwan ko si jezelle.
At that time I can start search her name in
FB Jezelle Bautista and I found him. I can add jezele to my fb account Since
jezelle accepting my fb request past day I open again my fb account then she
accept my request im happy that I can find again my ex gf in high school then I
start to chat her.
Are
you ok jezelle,
She replied I’m fine!
What
about YOU jesriel
Me same in high school nothing change at all.
Nice. He ask me jesriel do you miss me,
Ah, hmmmm why not Jezelle.
Tnx jesriel.
By the way where are you now Jesriel, ah im
here in Quirino, Province.
Do you want to go with me in a dinner time
jesriel, I answered why not Jezelle.
Promise.
And i ask her phone number. Jezelle do u has
a phone.
Yeah,
I give my number TO you Jesriel but make sure u don’t give it to others right.
Ok.
See you in MALL OF ASIA Jezelle.
I wait you from that place Jesriel.
Bye goodnight I love you JESRIEL.
I’m not supposed to be that Jezelle should
say that word “I LOVE YOU. At that night time im so happy at all
because Jezelle is single since I live together with the graduation rights.
Tama pa naman malapit na ang seminar ko
papunta sa U.P manila im so excited to meet Jezelle in a second chance in my
life.
Last, September 21 to 25 2011 U.P Diliman
conducting a nationwide Y4IT congress in Information Technology at the
University of the Philippines Diliman Quezon,City Manila PH.
I meet Jezelle again for a second chance in
MALL OF ASIA then eat a dinner in a food court together with me. I can see the face of Jezelle, she is more of
happiness’ happen in her life.
After the
dinner at night, I’m going to walk along the road of “MOA” together with
Jezelle in holding hands kilig na sana kaso lang holding hands nga nakalimutan
ko pa namang picturan si jezelle. But, the importance of this is to love each,
carring, trust, and lastly respect the girl. Since, Jezelle is hungry and tear
sty when I walk along the bay walk. I remember their favorite food and drink of
jezelle since when im a high school student before. I Surprise jezelle to buy “Siomai” and “Black Zagu.”
jezelle
said, I think you forget my favorite food jesriel.
Ako pa
makakalimutan ko ba yon para sayo. Basta ikaw jezelle pix man walang iwanan.
When jezelle
done to eat and drink a food. I ask something to jezelle hindi lang yon meron
pang iba akala moh nakalimutan ko ang lahat. Then I proceed to the flower shop
to buy a favorite flower for jezelle and I’m going to the stuff toys to buy
favorite stuff toys. At that night time jezelle is happy forever. Nakikita ko
kay jezelle na parang hindi siya makapaniwala sa lahat na ginawa ko at that
night. She ask me jesriel akala ko hindi moh na yon gagawin para sa akin. Diba
sabi ko walang iwanan.
Jezelle
said; hindi ka talaga nagbago jesriel ganun ka pa rin nung dati. Carring, love,
trust and respect the girl always like me.
Sweet mu
naman jesriel ganito kabang magmahal sa isang girl.
Sa oras na
yon hindi ako nakapagsalita sa tanung ni jezelle sa akin. Kasi nahihiya ako
ehhhhhh.
Jezelle
should say I know that you were shy jesriel right. I know that feelings of the
guy since girl started to talk that word for a guy right.
I replied
jezelle it’s that true.
At this time
sasagutin na kita jesriel. I love you so much. For the food and gifts to be
given to him thank you all. Hope you can’t change your attitude at all. I
appreciate your feelings jesriel how I love me.
By the way,
I can find a piece of papers and bullpens in my bag, what you can do jesriel
for a piece of papers and bullpens. I wrote something in the paper.
Ah ok.
In a piece
of paper I wrote my phone number to be given for jezelle. And this is a time to
say goodbye to jezelle. Before, I go to the bus I should say to jezelle “I Love You Jezelle”.
Jezelle smiled a cute in front of me and say
can I hug you jesriel once.
He said, why
not?
Once, the
bus is started to move slowly going back to quirino. I give it a piece of paper
to jezelle.
The last,
word I should say txt me later jezelle I wait your txt messages.
Later on
hinihintay ko yung txt message ni jezelle para sa akin pero wala pa rin akong
natatanggap na txt galing sa kanya.
I worries
about that moment because since I go back to quirino after the seminars held in
U.P Diliman Manila PH.
One month
later jezelle can’t txt me at all. I ask my self there’s had something wrong
with my self.
But I can
wait her txt message at all. I can’t surrender with this obstacle to face in my
life for today. I think so jezelle cannot forget him at all.
Yon nga yung
sinasabi nila.
If you love
a girl true you must to be able to fight their feelings what you have. Because
if you cannot fight a love I think so she finds another guy right. Especially,
I pray to god that jezelle is ok.
Today, the
end of month for October 2011 jezelle can txt me tnx for all jesriel. I’m sorry
ngayon lang ako nakapag txt sayo busy lang kasi sana maintindihan moh ako.
I thanks to
the lord god that my prayers can answer at all. Without god I think so nawalan
na ako ng pag-asa sa ngayon. There’s nothing impossible if you can trust to the
heavenly father.
Until now
jezelle and I had a solid relationship at all. Kahit long distance relationship
kami ngayon she’s in navotas and me here in quirino.
Hindi pa rin
nawawala ang tiwala namin sa isat-isa they trust each other and sweet romance
can still forever.
Last month
October 2012 I had encountered a problems together with jezelle he cannot txt
me for one month. Due for the “Kinukulit
ko daw siya” sabi niya sa akin kung ayaw daw niyang magalit sa akin wag
muna daw akong mag txt for one month sa kanya.
But I can’t
do that wasting time for a long days never txt jezelle. I fill worries about
that encountered in my life.
For a past
days September 2, 2012 jezelle txt me and she said that “Yung nagalit ako sau dati dba. Kalimutan muna yon bheb” sorry don
ah.
I replied
kasalan ko naman yon eh hindi naman ikaw yung may kasalanan jezelle kinulit
kasi kita eh.
Love remains
forever together with Jezelle and I.
All of this,
I recall all the past memories happened since in a high school student before. All
of them had complete.
This short
story to write is referred to a “DEAD
STAR” because I recall all the sweet romance happened in my life before to
my ex. GF since in a high school life.
I want to
post this short story to my blogspot.com name
of the site you want to search in the Internet find this jesrielcute143CrystalynPael.blogspot.com.
I hope more lessons you learn in this short story. I want to inspired youth
leaders to read this story.
I make this story
because I love the girl. Not to love the girl but, I want to express my
feelings to others.
Mapa long
distance relationship man kahit sang sulok ng mundo ka magtatago kitang kita ka
pa rin sa signal ng globe.
Kaya mag
globe kana rin katulad ko.
This is the
end of my story TCA to all of you.
Jesriel Cabug-os, 20, blogger used to express their feeling for the youth Student in Bachelor of Science in Information Technology (BSIT-4) in QSU.
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